Psalm 27: 3,5,13:14

It’s amusing how the simple things can completely turn a lifestyle upside down. This life is a true test of faith. The times where you feel like you are abandoned and left to fend for yourself; are the times when your faith should grown and shine the brightest. Each of us has our own hardships to endeavor and have had our tests of Faith. I’ve always thought I’ve had a “secure” relationship with God and because of that I was always so confident that he was always on my side. Now in times where I’m searching and am questioning how strong/secure that relationship really is; I’m feeling very alone. Knowing God is always on his children’s side, I can’t help but doubt. I think we doubt when our lives get shaken up and don’t go our way WE want them too. In church last week our sermon was all about how God loves us. [See my last post] That he gives us the tools to be better. Whether those tools help us, or they are tools that hurt us to show us what we really need. It is a hard thought right now to think, I’m searching, trying to make a better connection between it all, and God would give me the “hurt tools” right now. I know to help me, but it’s a struggle. I am trying to stay strong and show my Faith at a time when I feel like I’m being abandoned. I pray for the courage and strength to overcome my doubts and fears.

Every Mission has its battle fields. I think I’ve just found my first fight.

Until Next Time,

Peace and Love