Oh B.B. though my phone app says you are roughly the size of a cantaloupe, I feel quite different... larger. Much larger.
Today has been on overwhelming day my sweet girl. I have been stressfully thinking about all the things I think I need for you. What I don't have and mostly what the heck I don't know. Which is about everything I feel. We are in a whirlwind in getting ready for you. We're smack in the middle of redoing the bathroom, so that one day you can feel you are swimming tub. BUT mostly right now, its because I didn't want your Grandma to shower in the yucky old shower we had going on in there. Your incredible Dad is painting away in there. I've offered to help in all the ways I can, but there is only so much I can do while you're still cooking.
Not that I'm too stressed out about the bathroom, we're working for the same end and I am grateful that your Dad has done most of the work himself. Aside from the awesome help we've had from family and friends. What I have been thinking about today is...you. How the heck am I going to know how to take care of you? How quickly am I going to learn what you need when you whimper at me? I'm overwhelmed at the thought of how precious you are going to be, and how inadequate I feel to have you.
I know that almost all new Moms go through these thoughts and I just wanted you to know that I'm right there with the rest of all the other Moms. I'm not super anything. I'm just me and I pray that as we both grow together, me, is always enough for you. I pray for God's grace as I stumble through learning who you are and what His plans are for you. Prayer has been my saving Grace along with your Dad. I love that man. He is perfect for me. I promise you, he will be wrapped around your finger. He is going to love you more than you will ever know little lady!
I love you and can't wait to see your wondrous eyes staring back at me.
Love your Momma
5.14.2013
4.01.2013
Easter Changes Everything
I have a lot of free flowing thoughts floating in my head today. So as you read this, if it bounces, just hold tight.
This past weekend wast Easter. The single most significant day for any Bible believer. It was a beautiful day here. As Mr. Bailey and I sat in church, there was an awesome children's program. Those little kidlets got up there and sang their hearts out. All the while, parents and grandparents ooing and aweing at them! The thought hit me, that in just a few short years our little B.B. Girl is going to be one of those. WE are going to be one of those parents saying....oh look...she's so stinkin' cute!
Which then led me to the thought of how quickly time flies. It has been 5 years since Mr. Bailey and I met. 3 of which we've been married! What! Where the heck did the time go?? As I write this, I'm looking at our engagement photo board. We had people sign a 26x30 photo board at our wedding. We look so little. So young in it. We were very different people than we are now. Though, after what feels like a short 5 years I still love that man and have loved him more each day and I'm not sure how its possible.
You see 3 years ago we promised one another we would love one another until death do us part. That promise's meaning has changed over the years. Mr. Bailey and I were madly in love. That's the fact. My heart was full of love, full of happiness, full of joy and excitement. Yet somewhere in all of my fullness I was empty, I was lost, I was baffled. That is when I started walking. Walking a well lit path with my eyes semi closed.
My path led me to Jesus. I've never been the same since. Thanks to Him!! As a new follower of Christ I was brash and finger pointing. To everyone who wasn't, or I thought wasn't. This included my Mr. Bailey. Somehow through my journey, I started walking a more fine line of graceful. I know this isn't of myself, because I'm not as eloquent as I like to think I am. Somehow through the pit holes, burns and words Mr. Bailey and I started walking on the same well lit path together. We both have never been the same since.
Knowing people that are fellow followers of Jesus gives a person a feeling of immediate connection. Its a strange comfort with someone you've never met, let alone spoken too. Well having that new deep connection with the love of my life was something we've never had before. Loving another person in such a facet of ways is beyond description. With our faith solely in Christ, we have found each other. The way Christ intended us to find each other. This new love has become our foundation. A foundation on which the rest of our lives are built on. The foundation our B.B. is going to stand on and learn from.
The legacy that we are building and creating between us is something that death only can part. My hope and my dreams are solid. They are solid because we know that no matter what we do, there isn't a thing to great to take us away from the love of Jesus. A love so great He died for Mr. Bailey and I. Wiped away who we were, so we would become the people he intended for us to be.
This past weekend wast Easter. The single most significant day for any Bible believer. It was a beautiful day here. As Mr. Bailey and I sat in church, there was an awesome children's program. Those little kidlets got up there and sang their hearts out. All the while, parents and grandparents ooing and aweing at them! The thought hit me, that in just a few short years our little B.B. Girl is going to be one of those. WE are going to be one of those parents saying....oh look...she's so stinkin' cute!
Which then led me to the thought of how quickly time flies. It has been 5 years since Mr. Bailey and I met. 3 of which we've been married! What! Where the heck did the time go?? As I write this, I'm looking at our engagement photo board. We had people sign a 26x30 photo board at our wedding. We look so little. So young in it. We were very different people than we are now. Though, after what feels like a short 5 years I still love that man and have loved him more each day and I'm not sure how its possible.
You see 3 years ago we promised one another we would love one another until death do us part. That promise's meaning has changed over the years. Mr. Bailey and I were madly in love. That's the fact. My heart was full of love, full of happiness, full of joy and excitement. Yet somewhere in all of my fullness I was empty, I was lost, I was baffled. That is when I started walking. Walking a well lit path with my eyes semi closed.
My path led me to Jesus. I've never been the same since. Thanks to Him!! As a new follower of Christ I was brash and finger pointing. To everyone who wasn't, or I thought wasn't. This included my Mr. Bailey. Somehow through my journey, I started walking a more fine line of graceful. I know this isn't of myself, because I'm not as eloquent as I like to think I am. Somehow through the pit holes, burns and words Mr. Bailey and I started walking on the same well lit path together. We both have never been the same since.
Knowing people that are fellow followers of Jesus gives a person a feeling of immediate connection. Its a strange comfort with someone you've never met, let alone spoken too. Well having that new deep connection with the love of my life was something we've never had before. Loving another person in such a facet of ways is beyond description. With our faith solely in Christ, we have found each other. The way Christ intended us to find each other. This new love has become our foundation. A foundation on which the rest of our lives are built on. The foundation our B.B. is going to stand on and learn from.
The legacy that we are building and creating between us is something that death only can part. My hope and my dreams are solid. They are solid because we know that no matter what we do, there isn't a thing to great to take us away from the love of Jesus. A love so great He died for Mr. Bailey and I. Wiped away who we were, so we would become the people he intended for us to be.
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